I wanted to tell you

I wanted to tell you a thousand things.

I wanted to tell you about someone completely stupid that I don't hate

I wanted to tell you about my last mistake with every detail

I wanted to tell you about this crazy dream I had

I wanted to tell you about every tear I cried and every laugh I have had

I wanted to tell you about my family

I wanted to tell you about my dreams, the ones I have with my eyes open

I wanted to tell you about flying

I wanted to tell you about this book I read, that I loved

I wanted to tell you about my friends, and how they're going crazy

I wanted to tell you about this thought I keep having and how I push it as far away as possible

I wanted to tell you about this crazy cough I've been having

I wanted to tell you about how I'm worried about myself

I wanted to tell you a hundred things but you don't care about them

So, I swallowed.