If I had a chance?

I'd close my eyes more often

I'd tell the truth to the few that mattered

And lie a lot more to those who don't

I'd realize that living two half lives doesn't make one whole.

I'd tell people what I feel, when I feel it

And I would stop being a coward

The only but is this all requires for me to be a totally different person, which I can honestly say I'm trying to be, without any success at all if I may add.